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Ash Adams is a photojournalist and documentary photographer based in Anchorage, Alaska and San Francisco, CA, who works primarily for national and international media. Adams' work has been featured in The New York Times, The New Yorker,...
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Jennifer chants with 10 of her female friends during a Blessingway ceremony for her pregnancy. Jennifer's baby, Sky, was diagnosed in utero at 20 weeks with a serious heart complication that is compounded by another rare condition known as heterotaxy. Babies with heterotaxy and right atrial isomerism, Sky's defects, have roughly a 15% chance of surviving their first year of life. Many do not make it beyond the toddler years. Jennifer was encouraged by friends, her physician and her husband to terminate the pregnancy--she is a doula and childbirth educator and her husband is an firefighter, so the financial hardship would be incredible for their family which, between two marriages for each, includes 5 children ages 2 to 16. Jennifer decided to have her baby in the face of these challenges and wanted to commemorate the pregnancy and birth of Sky with a blessing ceremony, a belly cast, and journaling. She was told that her daughter may need open heart surgery immediately after birth and may not tolerate life on the outside of the womb. "They can tell form but not function until after birth," she says.
Jennifer chants with 10 of her female friends during a Blessingway ceremony for her pregnancy. Jennifer's baby, Sky, was diagnosed in utero at 20 weeks with a serious heart complication that is compounded by another rare condition known as heterotaxy. Babies with heterotaxy and right atrial isomerism, Sky's defects, have roughly a 15% chance of surviving their first year of life. Many do not make it to 5 years of life. Jennifer was encouraged by her physician and her husband to terminate the pregnancy--she is a doula and childbirth educator and her husband is an EMT, so the financial hardship would be incredible for their family which, between two marriages for each, includes 4 children ages 2 to 16. Jennifer decided to have her baby in the face of these challenges, and wanted to commemorate the pregnancy and birth of Sky with a blessing ceremony, a belly cast, and journaling. She was told that her daughter may need open heart surgery immediately after birth and may not tolerate life on the outside of the womb.
A communications director at Randall Children's Hospital in Portland, Oregon shows Jen where Sky will need to stay immediately after the birth. Because Anchorage does not have the surgical capabilities for babies like Sky, Jennifer will need to have her baby here.
"I know how rough things seem now. Sky has medical issues but she is perfect. You chose to give her a chance. Regardless of the outcome, this is what is right for her and you!" reads a card from Jen's friend Susan. Jen decorates her hospital room with a peace flag, cards, candles and other tributes created by herself and her friends to make her birthing space feel less sterile. Jennifer's previous two babies were born in a birth center and at home, so birthing in a hospital is not where she feels most comfortable.
Jennifer discusses plans for Sky's birth and after birth with her birthing team, with Barb Norton, her 'honorary mother' and a certified nurse midwife who flew down from Anchorage to be present for the birth. Jen is in early labor. Â She agrees to let them break her water to help speed things along.
Jen reconnects with Sky while the cardiologist evaluates her. After she delivered the placenta, Jen rushed down the hall to be with her daughter. Her husband, Aaron (right, back), missed the birth and stands cautiously behind, observing. Jen says she knew he wouldn't handle Sky's birth well, but was still upset that he hadn't come and had remained distant.
Aaron holds Sky for a moment after the cardiology team has finished their evaluations. Dr. Chang, Sky's cardiologist, found another abnormality with her heart in his evaluation, and has decided to watch her in the NICU for the next several days to determine next steps.
Two days after the birth, Jen cleans bottles in the sink in the NICU room while Sky sleeps. Jen pumps to keep her milk supply up while she waits to be able to breastfeed Sky.Â
Story, 4, looks across the hall toward a crying baby in another NICU room. "Mom, you go," she says. "He needs boobies!" While Jen's small children, Story and Sage, 2, do not stay in the NICU overnight, Story visits often while Sage stays mostly with Aaron.
Aaron lets Sky suck on his lip while Jen prepares to nurse. Jen scolds him; Sky does not have a spleen, and so her risk of infection will be one of her constant struggles. "She looks just like a normal baby," he says a few moments later, "but you have to rememeber that she's broken."
Sage, Jen's 2-year-old son, snuggles with Aaron while Jen soothes Sky in their room at the Ronald McDonald House. Jen, Aaron, Story, and Sage stayed in the Ronald McDonald House for one month before heading home to Eagle River.
Sky swings in the kitchen at Jen and Aaron's home in Eagle River. A week before leaving for Portland to have Sky, Jen and Aaron were evicted from their rental home without notice, so when they return from their month in Portland, they begin the process of unpacking and settling in.
Sky yawns after playing with Jen. "She becomes tired and breathless so easily," Jen says. After Sky returns home to Eagle River, she starts having what she describes as mini-TET spells, during which she turns blue and her SATs drop into the 60's. Jen is terrifed everytime, but Aaron tells her she's overreacting.
Jen nurses Sky while watching her children play. She gives Sky medicine around the clock while also monitoring her oxygen saturation and dealing with the stressful TET spells. She is told by her cardiologist in Anchorage that these will happen more frequently until it is time for Sky's first open heart surgery.
Jen is concerned about Sky at a routine caridiology appointment in Anchorage. While her oxygen saturation numbers remain low, she is told that this is normal for a baby with her condition and heart defects and that this pattern will likely continue until she has her first surgery.
Aaron, tired from a long night of work, listens to Jen talk with the doctors in the Emergency Room at Providence in Anchorage. Sky's heart stopped in the early morning hours of July 4, so she and Jen were rushed by ambulance to the hospital. Aaron, who had been working the July 4 shift with the Eagle River fire department, is exhausted but engaged. Jen says it was the first day that Aaron "got it" and felt like they were on a team again.
Jen sees Sky for the first time after surgery. She is on a ventilator and on a paralytic drug to keep her immobile. Medical staff explain to Jen the functions of all of the various tubes and machinery.
Jen's bed at the Ronald McDonald House. While Sky is in the PICU, Jen does not sleep at the Ronald McDonald House, but leaves Sky's footprints, a dress she wants to dress her in when she leaves the hospital, her pulse-ox, and other odds and ends in her place.
Back in the room at the Ronald McDonald House almost a month after Sky's surgery, Jen puts on make-up for the day while Sky sleeps. Sky suffers withdrawals and exhibits some post-traumatic symptoms but is calm as long as Jen is close by.
Jen changes Sky's diaper in a rental car outside of Seattle Children's Hospital. Jen wanted to get a second opinion because Sky's case is so complicated, but it was difficult to get the paperwork through. So, after days of phone calls, she was able to get a referral to head in for consults at Seattle Children's through a doctor in Anchorage. She then made appointments, rented a car, and drove Sky to Seattle.
Dr. Sawin explains in detail Sky's prognosis and his thoughts on how to move forward regarding a surgery Sky will need to attach her intestines to the bowel walls. Children with heterotaxy have a high risk for a volvulus, a life-threatening condition in which the intestines twist. Jen changes Sky's care to Seattle after this visit.
Sky, 6 months old, stands in her activity center while Sage runs into Jen with a kiss. Sky's oxygen saturations dip here and there, but Sky has had no more TET spells since her surgery several months ago.
Jen and a friend embrace at a gathering of her closest friends. Jen asked to meet to discuss some of the feelings she's been having about Sky's upcoming second open heart surgery and ethical dilemmas she has should Sky need a heart transplant. One of the babies with a condition similar to Sky's who Jen met through her daughter's illness had just been transferred to Seattle and is awaiting a heart transplant. Jen doesn't feel that it would be ethical to go through with a heart transplant if given the option and wanted to hear thoughts from her friends on the matter.
Jennifer changes a bandage while a nurse entertains Sky with a medical glove that's been blown up like a balloon. Sky was scheduled to travel down to Seattle Children's for surgery this week, but contracted RSV and was hospitalized for 4 days in Anchorage at Providence Medical Center. Sky's cardiologist in Seattle decided to postpone surgery for another month while she recovers.
Jen plays peek-a-boo with Sky in Sky's hospital crib on the last day of a four-day hospital stay at Providence Medical Center in Anchorage, AK. Sky was infected with RSV, a respiratory illness for which she receives costly monthly injections to avoid. Sky sat up on her own for the first time during this stay. "I love that they [Providence] let me stay in here with her to comfort her while she's sick."
Jen comforts Sky as her Anchorage cardiologist, Dr. Brekke, tries to keep her distance while moving in to listen with her stethescope. "I know not to look her in the eyes," Dr. Brekke says.
The family flies down to Seattle together this time for Sky's second open heart surgery. While waiting for a room at the Ronald McDonald House, Aaron bids on hotels on Priceline and is booked in a four-start hotel downtown, the Palladian. Upon checking in, they were upgraded without cost to a huge suite in the boutique hotel after the front desk personnel inquired as to the reason for their visit. They also waived their parking fees.
The family prepares to head out for a day walking around Pike's Place Market in Seattle. The location of their hotel is just blocks away, and with Sky's surgery just days away, they want to enjoy their time together.
Aaron comforts Story after a small tantrum in a store with a heart-shaped chocolate sucker. "This is all very hard on them," Jen says of Sage and Story. "Aaron has really stepped up as a parent to them in all of this. He's really stepped up."
Jen spends a few last moments with Sky before she is taken for her second open heart surgery at Seattle Children's Hospital. Before the surgery, Dr. Chen, Sky's surgeon, outlined a few of the options they would have once they were in, but exactly what they would be able to do would not be understood until then.
Sky plays at home in Eagle River, almost one month after her third open heart surgery. "Cognitively, she's all there," Jen says, "but we have some things to catch up on developementally." Sky is almost a year old but has not started crawling yet, and is still working on her fine and gross motor skills.
Jen drives with Sky to pick up ingredients to make her a birthday cake on her birthday. Although safety regulations suggest that parents place children in car seats in the back, Jen drives with Sky up front so that she can keep an eye on her and attend to her more quickly.
When Jen, Story, and Sky return home from picking up the ingredients for her birthday cake, Jen is surprised to find a beautiful cake in her kitchen that was made by a close firend, Susan. (Story couldn't wait for cake time and put her finger in it the moment she saw it.) Jen was working at the birth center where Susan delivered her baby, Jenny, who Susan named after Jen. Jenny was born with a heart defect that Jen noticed shortly after Jenny was born. Jenny was flown to the same hospital in Portland where Sky had her first surgery and is now 7 years old.Â
Jen plays with Sky on the floor of their kitchen at home on her birthday. "She is just so happy, and just so filled with joy," she says. "I feel like she really knows that she's home."
Jen inspects Sky's scar on her birthday. "It's different now versus after the first surgery," she says. "Each time they go in it heals a little differently."
Jen nurses Sky while Story and Sage play with whistes on Sky's birthday. "Today is really emotional for me," Jen says. "It's weird but I was sort of dreading it. A wounded heart does strange things."
6 days after she turns one year old, Sky starts crawling. "I am living this time with her with my whole heart. I know it's not going to last, and I don't care," Jen writes in a private Facebook post to the women she refers to her 'tribe.' "I'm not going to let anything darken her shine right now. Aside from getting her vitals/numbers and weight and meds, I can almost pretend she's normal. I constantly feel like I'm forgetting to do stuff for her because I'm not used to her needing to little. The biggest change of all is she's gaining courage to explore life beyond my arms. This makes my heart soar."
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Black and White, Documentary, Editorial, Photography, Photojournalism, Pregnancy/Birth
Jennifer Allison found out at 20 weeks pregnant that her baby, Sky, would be born with a rare syndrome and multiple defects in her heart and other organs. She was told that Sky would have a 15-20% chance of surviving the first year of life. She isn't religious, and between she and her husband, already has 5 children. But she knew that having her baby was the right choice for her, to whatever end. "I told her that I would carry her as far as she wanted to go," she says.