Unfiltered. Personal note to Visura members.
Some days, I genuinely feel that I am not enough, period. I wonder: if I had gone to grad school? not been a workaholic?so passionate? stubborn? dedicated to this personal project (yes, I am referring to Visura, who although is a business, it remains a very personal project to me)? If I had just gained more experience working for other institutions or done more? Maybe, if I had submitted for grants, awards and scholarships—and actually won them? If I was born a man? White? or non hispanic? If I didn't have an accent? If I had stayed in New York? I wonder. Would my journey be any different? There is no answer. Maybe. Anyways—the other day, I received a very beautiful letter from a photographer, who was asking herself these very same questions. And that's when I was reminded that you can always do more, you can always do better—but you have to accept where you are right here, right now...because otherwise, the past will result in anger and the future will create anxiety—and that is no way to live in the now...and all we have is the now. That is how we create our past and future. So, in my weakest days—it is always a Visura member that reminds me that it is not for me—but for you that I do what I do, everyday, a midst the challenges, heartbreaks, failures, lacking, rejections and any other negative experience that I may face on a daily basis. It is you, the Visura team, my family and friends— and my son Gabriel—that give me the courage to stand up and try, again and again. Take a breathe, smile and go back at it again. So, with all the negativity that is in the air— I want to take a moment to thank every Visura member—individual and organization—the Visura Team (Scott Thode, Graham Letorney, Chris Scott) and supporters, my family and real friends—and my son Gabo— for giving me purpose. You are not alone.