A note to myself
by Alinne Rezende2019-2022
“A note to myself” is a visual exploration that starts in 2019, on how I try to cope with my identity crisis, going deeper into the emotional rollercoaster that life often put us through.
So if there was something I could tell you right now, you know I would, but in the middle of this crisis, trying to make sense of all this, feel so lonely in here. But you know that. I am the only one hearing this voice inside my head, the only one feeling these heartbeats in my chest, the only one with all these butterflies in my stomach. All this pain, all these thoughts, all these questions. But you also know that.
You’ve probably been there yourself at least once. Isn't it? You too have been questioning: Who are we? What makes us, us? Uniquely us? What drives us to play that role, to believe what we believe, to set our values, to experience life the way we do? And simply like this, we build our identities along the way, along our unique journey that makes us who we are.
And yet, the truth is that we, humans, are still struggling. That still there are moments in life we face ourselves doubting and questioning ourselves. We still, sometimes, lose the perspective of who we are, especially due to radical stressors changes in our lives. Just like this, we go down the spiral into an identity crisis. Sometimes, in real life, it is just too hard to find our own place, to make peace with ourselves.
But I do believe this is one of the most important conflicts of our lifetime, where we can honestly interpret and investigate different ways of looking at ourselves. Especially in times like this one where we are living in, a pandemic, that adds so much more uncertainties to our currently troubled lives, where mental state and health can not be ignored or be left aside.
Let this journey, through images and writings, document and explore my conflictive feelings, let it fulfill its purpose: lead me back to myself.